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The PCR Song

~Lightningslayer
Bloodred Sapphire

humiliation.anguish.shame.pain.anger.wrath.envy.
grief.guilt.fear.disappointment.jealousy.hatred.
confusion.despair.vulnerability.hopelessness.
invisibility.disbelief.pain.ugliness.scream.
curse.swear.cry.run.wound.bleed.hurt.hide.plead...

...death...silence.

~Lightningslayer
Bloodred Sapphire

You know what? Forget it! Forget it all! Whatever you say about some "hope and a future" is probably reserved for like the rest of the world but me... Don't give me that "don't grieve the Holy spirit" nonsense, that's the only reason why that "Holy spirit" can't do anything, because it's so damned sheltered!

Grieve, Holy Spirit! Grieve! FEEL MY PAIN!!! Cry until you have no more strength left! Cry, Holy Spirit! Feel what it's like to have no way out, to have no choice! What it's like to be thrown aside, left behind and spat on and scorned at! I don't care how much it hurts you, in fact, the more it hurts, the better, then maybe you'll finally do something about it! Cry, ache and grieve until it is all you can do to scream into the heavens! To let out all your breath into one heartbreaking wail of WHY??!!!

Go on, I'll be watching...

~Lightningslayer
Bloodred Sapphire

I think heaven is overrated... My wall's filed with prayers, encouragements, notes etc. and every single one has a reference to God... Of how God's going help me, ho God cares... But in light of everything that's happening, I can't believe that anymore... I can't dare to put my future in anybody else's hands but mine... I can't even hand my past, present and future to God (all I can think of is "Look where that got me")... I trusted God last year, a fat load of help it did...

I can't lift my hands to praise Him, I can't whisper to thank Him, I can't read my Bible simply because I cannot believe what is said... I still believe that God exists, I still believe that God is good and everything that they say He is... It's just that it seems that God's a little too busy for me...

Just a little too busy to come and find me, to pull me out of this whirlpool that I'm descending into... A little too busy to come and talk to me... A little too busy to come and convince me that He's not too busy...

I don't want to look for God... I don't want to seek Him anymore... Sometimes, I just want to curl up in a little corner, tired, sad and afraid... Let God come to me...

Let God come and find me... And tell me that I'm still worth searching for...

~Lightningslayer
Bloodred Sapphire

Drops of Jupiter

Now that shes back in the atmosphere
With drops of jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that theres time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

Now that shes back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that theres time to grow, hey, hey

Now that shes back in the atmosphere
Im afraid that she might think of me as plain ol jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know youre wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

~Lightningslayer
Bloodred Sapphire